Random Thoughts and Conversation with Myself
7 more posts and I completed #100DaysToOffload a second time. Crazy. It was around 2 years ago when I created this blog on write.as. The following is more or less a conversation with myself.
I have written a lot since then. Still, I can’t say whether this blog has helped me or not. On one side, yes, I never expressed so much of my life to the public. But have I learned along the way? I can’t really say. One thing is for sure: I have learned that I can write 200 posts without having a plan. My fear was that I'm unable to fill this blog with life and create 100 and then 200 posts that are mostly not complete nonsense. I definitely did not get better at writing. I still write what comes out of my brain with all kinds of typos, spelling mistakes, and grammatical errors. And that alone feels like work. I can’t imagine writing longer posts and refining them again and again. Writing in this blog is like cooking and woodworking; it makes a lot of fun, but only as long as I don’t have to make a living out of it. It makes fun but also stresses me a bit. Because, to please myself and get posts done, I have to force myself over and over again to do it. I did not build a habit in the past two years. I love it, but it also feels a bit like a burden. But I’m happy that I did it. (Funny how I drifted away from the initial question.)
So, what’s the other side? It helped me, but it also made a lot of work, which I had spent somewhere else. Or did it really?
I’m thinking about how I will continue after the 200th post. #100DaysToOffload needs to be completed until the end of January, and then what? Start it again? Write without the challenge? I doubt that I will ever publish a new post without a challenge. Maybe there is a 50-days-to-offload challenge? One with a smaller scope would be nice. One idea would be to write fewer posts but maaaaybeee longer. At least a bit more polished? And then put smaller thoughts and things directly out to Mastodon, for example. Or Bluesky. Does all this even have a future with AI? 😅
But writing on Mastodon or Bluesky stresses me out in some way. Not posting itself, but if someone replies and I have to answer. Over the last few years, I got so bad at replying; it is crazy. I have unanswered WhatsApp messages from 1-2 years ago… Do I really want to take this to the public? 😅 I had small conversations on Mastodon, where I really had to force myself to answer. Not writing the answer itself. To not forget to answer, if I don’t reply immediately, it is gone, and I will forget about it.
How to end this post? I have no idea. In the first place, I thought I would just write a small post, and then it escalated quickly. I don't know what to do with it. I can tell myself to revisit this post in the future, but this isn't going to happen. 😂
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